Thursday, July 12, 2012

Probably TMI

I have a question. 

I have had the weirdest freaking period that I can remember in the history of my reoccurring visits from Aunt Flo. I started mildly spotting more like sliming around June 26th.  This was on and off for a few days. Then this last Monday still slime/spotting I felt a gush and went to the bathroom and sure enough a blob of goo and gunk.  Then for the next two days regular style then yesterday afternoon back to very light slime.  Got home last night and had the gushing feeling again and yep like a puddle..... and along with all this I have had some of the worst cramps ever, not like child birth cramps but bad.  I have also been nauseous.  

Is it a phase? 
Did I just drop my last egg?
Did both ovaries drop one at the same time?
It is impossible that I was pregnant unless through immaculate conception. 
Is it my bio-clock ticking telling me you don't have much time if you ever want another kid.  I am 36, I have been feeling baby hungry but I am in no position to bring a kid into this world right now.  I figure I should have 5 years or so if I met someone and we wanted to start over with the family thing.

I am very happy with the gorgeous amazing daughter that I have been blessed to have in my life.  I don't know what is wrong with me.  My finances are a disaster, my house is messier than it has ever been, I have no motivation to keep it clean and because it is so small it is hard to organize.  I need to get rid of a ton of stuff.  I haven't been eating and when I do I eat crap! I have never had a snickers bar for dinner in my life until this week.  I realize that this could be depression but I am already on meds and if I went to talk to someone I don't know what I would say.

and all that crap is probably what is causing my period to be all psycho!

I have been feeling just so humdrum lately.  There is no one that can fix it but me! I am not sure what to do or where to start.

Well that is my situation any suggestions?